end of the year is near...i hope my work got lesser......yeapz..i hope...

new supervisor coming in...hope he is fun to be with...well...

im on duty...recently been looking at HDB stuff...

excited...

im starting to look positively in my job..with geck's support..i look forward to having a future with her and also having a well paying job...

still lots to do...lots to work on....

was thinking about the days in school..and the days spent in camps..though short, they were always something to look forward to..and not to mention chalets... i miss my friends...although we were so stressed during school but looking back they seemed so carefree. i miss being in the ENS exco..being the SNS head..to organise activities, wierd ones, like the photo hunt and have the excuse to force people to participate in them...but i guess life is short...or should i say...life is limited in length..we can't always hope things will stay status quo... i guess if there were no separations, then we will not value gatherings.. i miss being in ens..i miss walking into chatter and being able to say hi to 90% of the people there. I miss squatting on roller chairs in comp labs during exam period.. i do not miss geck..becuz she always has been and always will be beside me.. and i do not miss the past because everyday with her just gets better. oh kay i guess i should stop here... lest people start vomitting...hahaha
kay la..to all my friends..i miss you guys..i miss the fun we had together...i miss those moments...one day if i miss them enough, i just might plan something....

till then...gambatte minna san!

today i got my degree...i'm happy... but.. somehow..deep inside i can't make myself happy...

yes im immensely proud that i got first class and was placed on president's honor roll for USP...

looking at wat i get..its like perfect...its like the school saying...this is the best we have to offer...

but i feel so..lost...i feel that im not the best..i can't live up to the name that i have been conferred. 2 months into my job and i dun seem to be as efficient as i would like to be. things left unfinished. everyday i'm asking myself...wats left?..wats the first thing i need to do when i reach back office. is there things to be thought out before i go back office. so that i can think outside and once go back office can start doing....

somehow i just don't get it...i hope i get it...i just dont..

my boss remarked to me yesterday "hey i din noe u have first class"...

alamak...paiseh to share ma....1st class..still make a mess out of things...

everything also need to be spoonfed...alamak....

if i kena nevamind...but i dun want to cause my boss to kena because of my mistakes... liews....

haiz..everything i do...or everything that i think aobut...my conscience bugs me...

maybe i should ignore these panicky thouts...and just tell myself...everything will be alright eventually. if there is an eventually..

My new desktop

My latest Masterpiece



Grandma and Granddaughter watch TV circa 2009

A: Go west, young man, go west!
Q: What do wabbits do when they get tiwed of wunning awound?

The Least Successful Collector
Betsy Baker played a central role in the history of collecting. She
was employed as a servant in the house of John Warburton (1682-1759) who had
amassed a fine collection of 58 first edition plays, including most of the
works of Shakespeare.
One day Warburton returned home to find 55 of them charred beyond
legibility. Betsy had either burned them or used them as pie bottoms. The
remaining three folios are now in the British Museum.
The only comparable literary figure was the maid who in 1835 burned
the manuscript of the first volume of Thomas Carlyle's "The Hisory of the
French Revolution", thinking it was wastepaper.
-- Stephen Pile, "The Book of Heroic Failures"