Travelling

I miss travelling with Geck. Especially the times travelling together. On a car. travelling down the highway to San diego..or to santa cruz. Just the two of us. On a road. Single purpose in mind. To get to our destination. Nothing to worry about. Just follow what the GPS says..she feeds me a fry or two while i drive. its almost dreamy. and we just talked.. did she sleep at all? I don't think so. Don't remember. I just remember chatting and driving..long drive..boring drive..yet so serene..and so private.. another similar experience is riding a scooter on Peng Hu. Yes i don't have a Class 2A license..but they rent us the scooter anyway. And there were very few vehicles in the way. still plenty of road for us to travel. just the two of us. and the whole world ahead of us.

Sometimes I just stare out in blank space...reminiscing these times together. just two of us. travelling.

I miss travelling with Geck.

Year 2009

2009 have been a very busy year. The start of the year was marked with rushing FYP. After FYP, it was a short break (of 3 weeks actually) going to Taiwan with my lovely darling and other great companions. Very memorable trip and I definitely would like to go back. And the following half a year was all work and very little play(in my opinion). Miss the carefree days in Uni. But always thought of Uni as an extended holiday from my work. Now its back to work. and working towards the goals of my life. really hope I can achieve the same kind of success that I got from my academic studies. but that will require lots of effort.

i look forward to the next two years. with good planning and execution. i will be one step closer to attaining my goals in life.

wish me good luck! and in turn i wish that my friends find happiness in their lives, whatever form it may come in.

end of the year is near...i hope my work got lesser......yeapz..i hope...

new supervisor coming in...hope he is fun to be with...well...

im on duty...recently been looking at HDB stuff...

excited...

im starting to look positively in my job..with geck's support..i look forward to having a future with her and also having a well paying job...

still lots to do...lots to work on....

was thinking about the days in school..and the days spent in camps..though short, they were always something to look forward to..and not to mention chalets... i miss my friends...although we were so stressed during school but looking back they seemed so carefree. i miss being in the ENS exco..being the SNS head..to organise activities, wierd ones, like the photo hunt and have the excuse to force people to participate in them...but i guess life is short...or should i say...life is limited in length..we can't always hope things will stay status quo... i guess if there were no separations, then we will not value gatherings.. i miss being in ens..i miss walking into chatter and being able to say hi to 90% of the people there. I miss squatting on roller chairs in comp labs during exam period.. i do not miss geck..becuz she always has been and always will be beside me.. and i do not miss the past because everyday with her just gets better. oh kay i guess i should stop here... lest people start vomitting...hahaha
kay la..to all my friends..i miss you guys..i miss the fun we had together...i miss those moments...one day if i miss them enough, i just might plan something....

till then...gambatte minna san!

today i got my degree...i'm happy... but.. somehow..deep inside i can't make myself happy...

yes im immensely proud that i got first class and was placed on president's honor roll for USP...

looking at wat i get..its like perfect...its like the school saying...this is the best we have to offer...

but i feel so..lost...i feel that im not the best..i can't live up to the name that i have been conferred. 2 months into my job and i dun seem to be as efficient as i would like to be. things left unfinished. everyday i'm asking myself...wats left?..wats the first thing i need to do when i reach back office. is there things to be thought out before i go back office. so that i can think outside and once go back office can start doing....

somehow i just don't get it...i hope i get it...i just dont..

my boss remarked to me yesterday "hey i din noe u have first class"...

alamak...paiseh to share ma....1st class..still make a mess out of things...

everything also need to be spoonfed...alamak....

if i kena nevamind...but i dun want to cause my boss to kena because of my mistakes... liews....

haiz..everything i do...or everything that i think aobut...my conscience bugs me...

maybe i should ignore these panicky thouts...and just tell myself...everything will be alright eventually. if there is an eventually..

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