Anger problems

Today I got angry. And made Geck upset. Damn. I need to learn how to control my temper. So many times I have lost it. Of course, I would not say I lost my anger for no reason. But I realise that there are no reasons in the world that could justify being angry at the one girl that you truly love.

So I had this "brilliant" idea. I made some cards. Not really make. I just took my old ENS namecards and started writing. Writing about what I should do when I get angry with Geck. So that when I'm angry and I can read those cards and calm myself down. I think its important that we write things down. Seeing it is more effective than just visualizing it in my mind. Especially when you are angry, you tend to get your mind clouded.

So the only problem now is, can I remember to look at the cards before I start saying out my angry words? And I must bring the cards whereever I go.

Some might think, that this demostrates my lack of love for my gal, because I need a constant reminder. But I think it demostrates my commitment to the problem and my determination to give my girl the life that she deserves. A good life for my perfect girl.

Another lazy Sunday

Last night I chatted with Geck Woon till 5am. And after that I went to sleep.

Woke up feeling a slight headache.

Went ahead to do my tutorials. Damn it. I hate Series and limits! And they come back to haunt me!! Haiyoh... why must I take this module?

And I manage to ...well... come up with sorry excuses for answers...(not all la...I am... of a certain calibre too...)

And it is another day I dedicate to missing my dearest. Everyday, I look forward to nothing but seeing her online. Vic says I'm impeding her SEP experience. Oh well. I guess if she needs the experience then i will shift aside quietly. But when she has enough and wants a taste of something familiar, then I will step in. I hope.

She is so far away. Everyday I just worry. I'm going to get wrinkles man. But I try to keep a positive outlook. So that she will get some of the "positive energy" from all the positive thinking I'm doing. That is.. something I aim to do. I guess I'm successful 70% of the time.

4 months and 16 days to seeing her.

I miss her so much.

A fresh start

I think I should leave my past behind.

And start a new life here.

To tell everyone about my happiness.

My love.

Geck Woon.

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